Hellena Post - Creatrix

I've tried on so many uniforms and badges that now I'm just me - mother of 8 children and all that entails, flowmad, and human animal parent. Writer of this living book of a blog, philosopher, and creatrix of hand dyed and spun crocheted wearable art. I gave up polite conversation years ago, and now I dive into the big one's.....birth, sex, great wellness, life, passion, death and rebirth.


Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Post Phyber Philosophy



Okay.  So life and extremities have been intense lately, as it always is, and I've got to confess that the mindworm of haters, has made it hard for my desire to yearn towards blogging of late.  And I had a big experience that I'd like to express on here, but am a bit loathe to all at the same time.  So I'm dragging my heels.  And the result is that I haven't even told you that I've very nearly finished writing the book that I've been writing and living for the last 13 years.  Post Phyber Philosophy.  

I was asked to launch it as an Ebook at Sustainability Alley at the Nimbin Show this coming saturday and sunday, so I am.  I've been working on it for months, but kinda stalled at the last minute, a bit of fear of success taking me for a spin for a while.  But with a deadline I'm grooving it, and it's all coming together beautifully.  

I've been a bit stunned and elated, that the passionate crafting, that sees me tempting Currawong into watching in depth media for the night, so I can avidly hook with a head torch, to see what happens next, has come back.  After a very long hiatus, which I realise now, was the lack of an audience.  I don't know about other artists, but for me, an audience is a very important aspect of what I do.  To have people that 'get' it, and love what I do, who are curious and interested, and waiting with bated breath to see what I do next, and appreciative, and lovely, and the main reason why I do this, cause I'm a show off.  And honest :)  




So knowing that there's a bunch of people I know, who I really like, and who really like me, and that they're going to be at the Nimbin Market at least once a month, and I'm going to be there too, and they're going to ask what I've been up to this month, and cause I'm a show off, I've been slipping making into every spare second, and feeling the fire and spirit of the visiting genie, and turning mistakes into features, and alive with it all!

Whereas blogging has turned into watching lots of haters traipse silently through my blog, and a few brilliant comments that make up for so much, but the audience isn't very visible or vocal you know?  I've been really missing the direct interactions with live people who laugh, and giggle, and share oxytocin and ideas.  And I've realised how massive a motivation that audience is for me and how I create.

I've been mourning the lack of passion in my craft since the light dimmed in me!  Which was....ooooo.......the last time that we regularly visited markets and festivals :)  Whether it's doing workshops, or festivals, or markets, or book launches or anything like that........having an interactive audience is just awesome.  And community forming.  And bonding.  And oxytocic.  And was the missing ingredient to my passion.  There just didn't seem to be that much point to it, once I'd made all the things I wanted for our family, unless there were people to appreciate it.

So I've got this little corner of the kitchen, and I've realised that it's my studio and practical shrine and altar to creativity and passion.




And it's where you'll find me as often as I can, often first thing in the morning, and late at night.  The photo below is from before I spunked it up a bit.  Crafting hard with Spiral, making the Slats (sleeves/legwarmers/hats) pattern.



Or sitting right next to my studio/altar/bed, and doing the spinning meditation.  Just lately there's been a big deal going on, like I alluded to before, and it's been a bit of a nail biting experience for large chunks of it, and there's been a lot of physical endurances, and some worry, and a few other emotions thrown in.  And I've found that more and more, rather than turn to many of my other traditionally healthy and unhealthy avoidances, using spinning as a meditation to shut off my babbling brain, and sink into my subconscious and just be for a while.........has been just divine.  I can slip into and out of it easily with my spinning wheel.  And still be present for all the younglings and animals that we're shepherding.  The best thing is, that the beautiful meditation has the result of a ball of yarn.  Something practical that is useful!  And it's made our house colourful with skeins.....


So when there's a spare moment, or when I'm really stressed, or when inspiration strikes and the family allows, I sit and create.


I've been writing patterns for the first time.  And quite successfully too.  At least I hope.  I tried to get some folk to make the Slats pattern on facebook, and lots said they would but no one got back to me, so  I'm just gonna have to go with the flow on that one.  I think it's fairly straightforward!  I've combined photos with explanations, and some of the terms I use are the same used in traditional crochet patterns, so I'm pretty pleased with the result.  

So I'm presently taking photos....


And writing notes......


And collecting photos of my pallette and tools and methods and materials.....


And coming up with kooky creations inspired by appreciation....



These are Pentapusses.  So named, cause they look like octopuses and definitely sea creatures, but they've only got 5 tentacles, and like I described the process on my Hellena Post Creatrix page on fb.....

"Made a hat that had dangly carroty things hanging out the top, and my fingers wanted to go into it, so I thought I'd try and make a puppet for my hand, (which I've threatened to do for a long time), and started out making a long bit for a leg, and then I started an arm - even had a hand with five fingers and everything on it - and played with it to see if it would work. The hand dangled in a way that wasn't very attractive, and to work as a movable hand would need some wire, which would stop it from moving at all, so I pulled the hand apart, and turned it into another leg, and made them all legs, which turned into tentacles, and then when I let it sit on my hand to see what my hand wanted to do........it wanted to move around in a poi like fashion, and swing figure eights, and fly through the air with the greatest of ease, so that's how it turned out. And then I wanted it to be an octopus, but I couldn't work out how to get another 3 legs on, and having them dangle from my palm wouldn't move in the same directed way, so I decided to leave it at five hanging off fingers and leave it at that. And then playing with them with Currawong, he said it needed eyes, so then the eyes came. And then flinging the ends round, I realised that beads or bells would be lethal, so tassles were the way to not turn it into a weapon."



It's also got me and Currawong back into photographing each other and the family, and all the things we do more often.  And Currawong gets to slip photos like this in, when taking photos of me hooking first thing in the morning.  Funny how a lot of his photos end up as cleavage shots :)

I've gotta mention too, that this is all going on as we're going about our daily lives, caught here in a photo by a beloved friend, walking the main street of our home town Nimbin.  And incidentally, with me wearing the moth wing cape that I've made a pattern for, that's in my PPP  Ebook.  By the way, being photographed under the Happy High Herbs sign was totally incidental.....and funny :)



And it's also going on while we've been having one of our busiest times with visitors, and people staying for extended periods, and crafting around them and sometimes onto them, or at least onto their dreads :)  There was a veritable rush on dread cosies and hair extensions for a while there!




But overall.....it's been a tremendously exciting experience as well.  I've been totally blissed out that I feel like my computer skills, software, hardware, photos, and the ibooks author template, have all come together in an alchemical magical act.  Had a minor freakout, when I thought yesterday that the ibooks author program was going to only let me publish through ibooks, and charge 30% on all my books!  Thought for a minute I was going to have to copy and paste the whole bloody lot to a free program.  but I got my genius IT expert daughter Jess onto it, and she worked out that it was all fine, as long as I kept my book as a PDF, which I was going to do anyway.  I'm absolutely over the moon with how it came together.  I'm still finishing it off as we speak, but I'm gonna make it on time for Nimbin Show, even if I have to pull off an all nighter.  Might even try and get some wine and nibbles for my little one hour launch :)  Here's the first page to show you how it looks.


And all 70 plus (haven't quite finished it yet!) pages, of photos and stories and patterns, will be available as a PDF file on my Etsy site, and you can also email me (address in my list of places on the right further down).  So you can download my book, or buy it in a crocheted necklace pouch, that also doubles up as a finger puppet.  $20 for the PDF download, and $25 for the crocheted pouch and usb stick.  I"ll keep you posted :)





P.S.  So it's been a little while since my launch now, and I'll post a link to my Etsy page now, just in case you want to go over and check it all out.  




















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20 comments:

  1. It's looking fantastic Hellena. I'm so pleased that you didn't let the haters hold you back. I have a suspicion that the haters are a very noisy minority and that the vast majority of your followers are like me: love what you do (adore the pentapusses/pentapi!) and your philosophy but for many feeble reasons, don't comment to let you know. Sorry about that. You're awesome and a real inspiration!

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    1. Well I certainly hope the majority of my followers are like you. And that they likewise pop in and comment from time to time! Thank you so much for leaving a note, and I love the pentapi too! You wait till you see the Nonapuss.....

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  2. I love everything you do, Hellena! Spin on!

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    1. I love everything you do too inspirational woman! Thank you and love to you :)

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  3. Those pentapusses are ADORABLE. <3 I hope you are able to find all that you need to stay creative and keep growing.

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    1. And would you believe it.....the two things I've made recently that I didn't write a pattern for as I went!! I'll get there eventually :) Thanks darlin! And I reckon I know what I need now, and all it is really is an audience :)

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  4. Wonderful and inspiring! Thank you Hellena x

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    1. Thank you for taking the time to let me know :)

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  5. i'm going to agree with Melanie, i do feel bad for sitting quietly and not giving you props for all you're doing! you are an inspiration.....you're crafting is beautiful and unique and your book looks great.

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    1. Wow!! I should whinge about not getting comments more often :) Thanks darlin! It's been a very long process and I've loved just about all of it :)

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  6. can't wait for the ebook Hellena , please give us a poke when it is ready for purchase , I am just starting to delve into free form crochet and I am totally in awe of your creativity and energy ..... thankyou :)

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    1. I will do, working on it now. I thought I was going to sell my ebook through Etsy, but it's too big, so I'm getting onto the best way to sell it. Hopefully from this blog! We'll get there soon...

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  7. Oh man..wrote two comments that were eaten up so will keep it short & sweet- you look gorgeous,your kids are adorable & so happy for you that your creative juices have been restored. I hope you realise that the people who speak ill of you are just scared & it's not your problem to worry over. Love your blog,think you're awesome,that is all :p

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    1. Thank you so much Shannon!!! I wish your other comments had worked, what a shame to lose them to the ethers.... I do get that the haters are speaking bout themselves, but there's layers to getting through the hater virus I'm discovering. Thank you heartily for digging my blog and taking the time out to let me know though :)

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  8. Hi Hellena, can't wait to purchase your e-book, and if you need a pattern tester I'd love to give it a go. I'm a learner crocheter and also teaching myself to read patterns and have become totally addicted to hooking! Happiness to you and your clan <3

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    1. I could so use a pattern tester......thought I had a whole heap! Sent out 20 patterns! But nobody got around to it. Understandable. But I'd love someone who wasn't especially good at patterns in particular to have a go :) Let me know how they went. And you gotta watch it darlin!!! Cause hooking is totally addictive!! Of the best sort though :) Thank you so much :)

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    2. Are the hook sizes American hook sizes? So a Size 10 = 6mm or a J?
      Very inspiring read, got sidetracked finishing off some of my pieces creatively after I read your comment about being willing to play. I have some yarn at home I can Use I think, it's some wool a relative gave me, possibly homespun wool for making felted slippers.
      The photos are fantastic. The ones of Currawong make me smile, except the one's where he's modelling Trent's Woodchoppers mittens and hats, they made me laugh very loudly!

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  9. Yes, I too am one that loves your posts and thinks about them and they change me (They do!) and I don't often write anything to that effect! We have similar backgrounds (conservative religious parents) and similar views on the present so when you write, I listen. And I'm almost always remiss in saying thank you, so...Thank you! Thank you for not letting the haters out there stop you from posting your insightful thoughts which have been life changing for me! I am thankful for you and before I delete my whole comment (like I usually do, which is why I hardly comment) I will just hit post and try not to be nervous about it. I prefer face to face conversation when talking about the kinds of things you write about and I feel I'm not great at getting my thoughts across when typing them out, so I stop myself from putting my thoughts down on the computer, but I can and will try to at least get a thank you out for taking the time to think and write and create like you do!
    Becky

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    1. Becky you're such a sweetheart :) Thank you so much for working out of your comfort zone, and not only writing a message, but posting it too. I understand the nervousness of sending your thoughts and heart out into the seemingly endless world wide web, but I'm so glad that you did :) And I'm up for a face to face discussion by the fire pit anytime darlin! Always love to have likeminded folk at our place. Thank you so much for listening to what I have to say, and letting it move you, and most especially for letting me know :) And just for the record, I reckon you're great at getting your thoughts down on a computer, cause you've conveyed yourself beautifully! Thank you so much for taking the time to let me know how you feel. You're beautiful :)

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  10. I will be purchasing your ebook on pay day. My husband suffered a TBI and has taken to crocheting to keep busy would like to see some patterns as i am not any help to him. I also like your writing. Take care Amy

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